My broken heart

Emang jadi orang tua tuh susah nya amit-amit yaaah.. Anak2 pada sakit sedihh bgt, gamau makan rasanya pengen garuk2 tembok, segala cara udah di coba dari pasang senyum super duper manis sampe sedih, dari kasih makanan yg rasanya asin, manis, kecut, keras, sampe experiment makanan sendiri.. Anaknya masih gak mau laju makannya..huhuhuuu.. Baby2 kuuu ayo dong cepet sembuh, jangan sakit terus.. T_T 

Almer birthday bash

Almer Philia Ramadhan turn 1yo

My life is AWESOME!

Too enjoy living my life make me forgot blogging.. Pardon me.. 

My baby Almer already turn 13 months, been try to train Rafa to tell me when he wants to poop & pee and today his first time telling me since almost a week.. Yeeaayy.. I almost desperate, because I have try all the ways people tell me how to train toddler to do potty. Ohh, Almer is walking alredy, and the funny part is I'm not the one who happy he can walk by his own, Rafa also happy by sayying "look mama, ade bisa jalan" oohh thats sooo funny.. Watching Rafa & Almer grow up so fast sometimes make my eyes watery.. I'm sure will missed this momment.. 

Last week I start babysit Beilley & Kevin again, yes again.. They stop comming in the middle of summer and school just start this monday and they comes again.. I love Beilley, I paint her nails yesterday.. 

Rafa will turn 3yo in two weeks, and I hope he will not need diaper again in day & night.. 

All I can says is Alhamdulillah to Allah, who give me 3 gorgeous boys in my life, a husband and 2 son is more than too much to make my life so full of jolly every day.. 

Nowadays

Hi ho jayho.. You miss me? I miss me.. Hahaha.. Been buzy since I baby sitmy friend kids since last month, I didnt even celebrate my birthday, i'm getting too old for a celebrate anyways.. Hahahah.. Hubby even let me pick my own present.. What an old style we are.. Anyways, it's spring already yeeayyy hooo.. Come to mama suuny.. I cant wait to go out and smell the flowers, no more going to mall, i'm comming playground, park, beach.. We have sooo much plans to go out I hope this summer will gonna be greaaaaat.. 

Kids.. Kids.. Kids..

I think this is the worst

A friend of mine post something on path that truly capturing what I was feel in the moment.. 

Hari ini eky pergi kerja dan baru bakal balik lagi nanti hari selasa malem, ooh tonight will be a loooong night without him T_T 

It's makes me hate february even more.. 

I know Allah will not let me get something more than what I can hold.. But this is hard.. Really really hard.. With two lil kids as my responsbility and no one around to help.. Meehh.. Sigghh.. Hiikksssss.. 

Dear march, please come faster... 

It isn't me

Beberapa minggu terakhir ini gatau kenapa lg stress bgt, jerawatpun smp muncul dimana2.. 

Rasa kangen, bosen, kesepian, kerepotan, semua campur aduk jadi satu.. Pingin tapi gak pingin.. Ditambah cuaca dingin yang ngebuat gak bisa bergerak keluar rumah.. Pingin cepet2 fall and i really2 miss warm weather.. Pingin jalan2.. Walaupun cuman ngiterin komplek.. Pingin almer cepet gede jadi bisa diajak jalan2 dan gak sebentar2 crangky.. Ya Allah doa ku hanya buatlah aku jadi pribadi yg lebih sabar menghadapi cobaan2 mu, sehingga aku dapat melewati semua ini.. 

Kadang mikir sih kalo lg kerempongan.. Setaun dua tahun lg saat rafa udah sekolah nnt cuman berdua aja sama almer dirumah dan disaat almer udah sekolah pasti gw akan kangen masa2 kerempongan sama mereka.. 

Pingin bisa enjoy nikmatin masa2 kecil mereka, seandainya diindonesia pasti punya pembantu dan gw bakal bisa nikmatin me time.. Tapi anak2 pastinya juga gak akan se deket sekarang sama gw.. Huhuhuuu..